Needed to write this for sanity reasons!!!

I hate going to sleep because I know that even if I take a sleeping pill it will be a crappy nights sleep!!! I will wake up several times and about 3 a.m.ish my stomach will start to burn and the pain will wake me up and pretty much keep me up or in a sleep where every time I breath or move it wakes me up!!! I am so freaking tired of my stomach hurting!!! My stomach burning!!! I am laying here typing and my stomach hurts so much I want to cry, scream and throw something!!!! I wish I knew what was causing this!! I can go weeks where everything is fine, no stomach problems at all, this is the longest it has gone on, about 3 weeks! I some days wish I would never wake up then I would not have to deal with the pain!!! My fingers are soooo swollen. As soon as my feet hit the floor this morning, the pain has been intense!!

I am laying here holding back the tears. I am so tired of this!! Waking up with my stomach like this. I know I need to loose 30 pounds but when my stomach is like this I look even worse. The swelling is intense and it hurts so much!!

I love my dog but we have got to figure out something else to do with her at night. She cannot continue to sleep in our room, I hear every time she moves! I mean every time!! I even take sleeping pills and I hear her!! My hearing has not gotten worse that is for sure. Kyle's alarm clock goes off (other side of the house) and I hear it the second it starts. Kyle on the other hand is sleeping right next to it and doesn't hear it or he is able to ignore it. I wish I could be like that!!! I mean his alarm has gone off for over 45 minutes, until I can't take it anymore. I put my feet on the floor, the pain shoots up my legs (my legs are already hurting) and I start trudging to his room. The pain in my stomach makes me want to double over!!!!

When I say I wish I didn't have to wake up, I don't know how to explain it!! But morning after morning of this...I have cut out grapes and it still happens. The only other thing I have had in a row is oranges which I am now going to cut out. When I was eating grapes, I was not eating oranges. I really love oranges.......I hope that is not the problem. I really don't think the fruit is causing the pain because I have had this pain off and on for a couple of years and grapes and oranges are not always in my diet. The pain is just getting worse!!! I am continueing to eliminate foods.

I don't know when the last time I slept thru the night was or woke up with NO pain in my stomach?????

The pain is from under my booby's all the way down to my nether region!! I just coughed and sharp pains were all in my stomach....I will definitely be bringing this up today at the doctors!!!

O'yea, I am also working on cutting out the juice I drink with my poopy juice. I have been drinking cran-apple or cran-orange juice in the morning and at night with my poopy powder mixed in. I have been drinking this juice for a long time so I don't think this is the problem. When my stomach is fine, I am still drinking juice. I am trying to keep a food journal to help me figure out if this is even food related. I don't think it is all food or juice causing my pain???????

Thanks for putting up with my ramblings this morning! I woke and had to do something......:(

I want to be able to role over and snuggle with Jim!!! I love morning snuggles, it is not fair to him!!1

My plans for this morning is to let my pain meds kick in then do my workout video. I'm hoping this will help my day get going...and me too!!!!! The sad part is, when I do this my body parts will feel like they weigh a ton!!!