Monday, April 27, 2009

Had a pretty good weekend....Saturday I went shopping with my mother-in-law and had alot of luck. It was a very bad eating day for me though!! Church was all about praying.....youth group was all about raising money for Mexico mission trip, car wash and bake sale on same day, same place. We are also working on our name....I love our youth!!
I have got such a busy summer ahead of me. I am kind of nervous about getting through it.
My pain level was manageable this weekend too, it was nice.

Gotta get up, I am going to walk Maggie with Mellissa and her dogs.....then off to water class. Will write more when I have time and am more awake. I am fighting falling asleep. I am typing this with one eye open and my arms keep stopping and laying on my keyboard. Ok I just woke up....gotta go

Saturday, April 25, 2009

cant skeep,,,,,,

Friday, April 24, 2009

I want a new body!!!!!!!!!!!! I was having such good days and right now I am having a hard time remembering those days!!!!!!!!!!My hips and my legs are in such pain, I can't stand it. I want to scream!!!!!!!! I am hoping and praying that the water feels as good as I am dreaming it does when I go to water class. It is so frustrating feeling like this! I am so sorry, Jim, you didn't sign up for this!!!!

Thursday, April 23, 2009

I wish I could get a new that doesn't hurt! My hips and knees feel like they are on fire and my feet are killing me. My hips are about a 500 on a scale of 1-10, my knees are about a 300! I just want to scream and can't get comfortable!!!!
I went to the gym today and did 20 minutes cardio on the elliptical...I can't wait to get in the pool tomorrow, the water will fill so good.
not sure what is going on with my hip/ it just hurts and the pain runs down my leg, i can be walking and all of a second my leg will give out on me at my knee. I wish I could explain how it feels!
can't sleep!!!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Wow I am so relaxed tonight....Jim and I had massages tonight! Jim discovered a great place, the massage school! They charged $35.00 for an hour and it was a great hour!! I so needed that!
She payed attention to everywhere I asked her to. I am worried about my left hip is just a new hurt that has not gone away. It is a deep pain too.
Good morning.....
wow, yesterday after 6:00pm was a total loss to me! I don't know if it is the oxycontin or just my fibro flaring up? I can't seem to wake up or arms are sooo heavy and my eyes just won't stay open. I have taken several mini naps while typing this. I know it is not the oxy because I have been through this before. If==================================================================
oops fell asleep with finger on mmmmmmmmmmkeys. Did it again.
I can't stay awake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that one i did. It has taken me almost an hour to type this..... THIS IS CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!! did!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Ok I am going to try and finish this before midnight. I can't stay awake! I was in the middle of cleaning my bathroom then all of a sudden I am useless...I just closed my eyes and napped for a few. (while typing this I napped)
Nothing feels as good as rubbing your face in your cats fur. Gizzy is laying all curled up between me and my laptop....
My pain level is prettty ok today which is nice but of course I am so tired, I am not getting anything done.
I just woke from another nap.....I gotta go body weighs a ton...
one question so you know when a friend is really a friend????????????

Sunday, April 19, 2009

First let me say, it is good to be back home.....
Last night my leg pain was at my all time worst!! I don't think it has EVER hurt as bad as it did last night. I didn't know whether to cry, scream or what? That's just it, it hurt so bad I didn't know what to do! I actually kicked Maggie out of the bed. I wish I could explain the pain.......I honestly don't think I could live like that for long.....!! I am glad I fell asleep finally.
This morning was a good morning...I got up and got going!! Church was great...we voted on our logo and now have one!
Youth group was great about a great bunch of young adults. We are planning our first fund raiser for the mission trip to Mexico, a car wash.
I am trying to type this and not fall body and eyes have gotten so heavy...I am going to sign off...

Friday, April 17, 2009

OK MY ANKLES AND LEGS ARE KILLING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Good morning....I have not been able to blog for the last couple of days because I couldn't sign on but I so happy to be on here now. This has been such a relaxing week for me!!!! Last night was a great nights sleep!! I woke up and felt good. My hands - fingers hurt, my legs are having a hard time. I am feeling kinda thick headed with my eyes and around my shoulders and neck but I slept good!! We have not layed out all week because it has either rained, to overcast or to cold. I am going to be laying out at 12:00 today even if I have to be covered under a blanket!!! I have not come back from the beach without sun in forever....IT STINKS!!!
My pain level has been pretty good this legs have been between a 5-8. My ankles and feet really bothered me. I did have a great walk yesterday. When I first started, my legs were working against me and didn't want to stop hurting but once I got going...I loved it!! So anyone that has exercise, it does help!
I am going to go see my doctor about my hips and my fingers....they have just gotten really bad!!! My knuckles are so bad, I can't get any of my rings on and I hate that!! It is not the salt or female swelling, it is just my knuckles have gotten so bad...
Well, I am going to sign off now and go lay out!!!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Where is the sun????? I am really getting tired of not laying out.....I want to get some color... you have color!!!!!! (that last part was from alexx)
I wanted to go to the YMCA with Michelle but just couldn't get going this arms and back were hurting and my legs were not moving to well. I AM GOING TO THE Y TOMORROW! Today we are just sitting here watching tv!!! Relaxing I am doing that....I want to lay out though..the sun feels so good on my body!!

Monday, April 13, 2009

Howdy everyone,

This has been a pretty good day. I woke up and couldn't move. I didn't want to get up my body felt like a ton. My arms and legs were just dead weights. My legs were just one big pain!!! I had to get up though to get ready to head to the beach. Thank goodness I was not the one driving, Michelle was. That was soooo hard!! Me getting out of bed, I mean. I finally starting to feel ok about 1:30ish......My legs were the biggest problem in the car.....on my pain scale, it was about a 200.
We got to the beach about 4:00ish and just chilled out the rest of the night. I am scared to take my sleeping pill tonight because I don't want to do anything stupid....I also don't want to stay awake 1/2 the night. I only have 1 left after we will see!!!
As far as tomorrows plans go, not sure yet but I am sure it will not include laying out. The rain just sucks, it makes me feel worse.......I love the heat.......
Right now my hips are a big problem for me..they hurt all the way through. I think I will try 1/2 a sleeping pill and see what happens....Good night!

Friday, April 10, 2009

Today sucks!!! Thank you Mellissa and Michele for your love, understanding and support!! Jim, I love you and thank you for everything!! You are my best friend!!!!
I really over did it yesterday and now I am paying for it!! In so many ways....mentally and physically. I went to my water class and the water felt so good. I was able to do all my exercises but when I went to swim a lap, that didn't happen! I just couldn't do it!! I had a break down in the bathroom and proceeded to have it until about 10 minutes ago!
I did get some info from one of the ladies in my class about a place that offers alot for fibro and am going to check it out! I would be willing to try acupuncture. She told me about it on Wed and brought the info today, very sweet of her to remember me!!!
Gotta go veg, will write more later.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Good morning to everyone....I am having a hard time moving this morning but I am going to make myself move as soon as I am done typing this. Hopefully I can do some yard work, I have not been outside yet to see the weather. My body is not moving so well and my legs are in so much pain but I am getting up now!!!! So I'll be back later because I am not staying in bed all day....I have to get into my chaps...

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Ok today's water class was wonderful!!! I got there early and actually swam some laps before class started!! The water temp was great, could have been a little warmer though. I am the youngest person in the class but everyone was really nice to me. Sometimes when you are new to something you feel like a wall flower, but not today! Everyone talked to me!
By the way, I hope that no one is grading me on my grammar because I know I stink in that area.
It felt so good to be in the water...we used water weights and swim boards. I got a good workout and felt it after. I loved swimming and then just floating in the water. I am looking forward to class on Friday. This is a 3 day a week class.
My legs were killing me when I was swimming but I was determined to do it. I know how good it is for my shoulders, actually my whole upper body. I so need that!!! I am going to get back in shape! It will be a painful road but I can do it!!!
I have not taken a nap all day and that has been so nice. My legs have been hurting all day and actually my hip joints have been hurting. It was nice to meet a lady today in class that has some of the pain areas I have, legs and her feet. Feet is such a strange area and hard to explain. I have realized that I am standing totally different. I am now standing with the outside of my foot taking all the extra weight maybe or because my feet hurt and I am trying to take some of the pain away???? Maybe both???
I also talked to a lady that understood my memory loss. I can't remember anything!!! You can tell me something and less than a minute I forget. I can't spell anymore either.....I used to be such a good speller. I am getting better at my list making. If I didn't make a list I would be lost. That doesn't mean I get everything done though...haha! I forgot what that is like!! hahahaha
My husband is such a patient man....I am so blessed, Genesis 2-24!!!!
I got my Fibromyalgia baseball hat this week, I really like it. I also got my t-shirt I just wished I had ordered a medium so I could wear it more. Way to baggy!
Today was a good day....I didn't work out with weights or do the eliptical but I got a good workout in the pool. Tomorrow it is the eliptical and weights....I hope.
Time for bed so I am going to sign off
OK water aerobics this morning!! I hope that I don't crash after it. Yesterday from about 5:00 on my day was a total loss. I slept like a rock, I couldn't move.
I hated laying here last night after I woke up, I was such a weight!! I am so tired of laying here with no energy and not getting things done.
Gotta get ready for the pool and then weights with Michelle..........I'll be back!!!!

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Well I had my first workout today...I felt great afterwards, then I came home and crashed!! I didn't wake up until 8:30. Jim came home from a meeting and I barely remember talking to him.
I feel as though I have been hit by a mack truck! I have water arobics class tomorrow and I hope to feel better later in the day. Better than I do now!!
I have got to get in better shape and loose weight!! I am at my all time worst and have got to turn this around!!! What is it going to take for my brain to stop eatting??? Stop munching.....keep my mouth shut!!! I want the energy to work out.....
I hate the thought of putting on my bathing suit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, April 6, 2009

It has been a couple of days since I wrote, I have actually been some what busy. I know hard to believe but it is true.
We went to the beach for my friends Marli and Rudy's wedding. On the beach, blue sky, the sun on your was very nice. Marli looked beautiful of course. It made me remember how great my wedding was and how lucky I am.....maybe we will renew our vows after 20 years??????
My legs and feet have been in such pain. Especially my feet! My ankles kill me!! On a scale of 1-10, my pain has been about a 100. My legs scare me....I am going to start back to exercising tomorrow, wish me luck! I am also going to be taking a water aerobic class for Fibromyalgia 3 days a week. I can't wait!!! Hopefully I can start my support group too.
I am so tired right now, can't keep my eyes open. My body is a dead weight right now. I made myself go today....
My fingers won't stop knuckles look like giant sausages!!
Did I say I was going to start working out tomorrow??? I know I did just trying to remind myself.
I am going to bed...

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Today was a sad but a happy day....Joe is with God!! It doesn't get any better than that!! I got to hold baby Benjamin during the funeral and he smells soooo good! I am just glad Jim was standing beside me when I got wobbly and almost fell....shh don't tell Maggie or Rob. I would never let anything happen to Benjamin....I also got to see Jackson and Kristin so it was a good day.

I love kissing my kitty cat when he is sleeping beside me...he is so soft. He is great for stress therapy. Maggie's kisses are so loving and slobbery! I didn't want to get up this morning but I am glad I did. My legs and feet were and are killing me. My neck and shouldars were really hurting this morning...I hated putting on a shirt. I didn't want anything touching my skin!
I get to see my daughter this weekend :) YEA
Rudy and Marli are getting married Saturday. I am not looking forward to the drive down....the thought of being unable to move for 3 1/2 to 4 hours just terrifies me! I am glad for the married couple though! I just don't want the pain that is going to come with is going to take me hours to recoup!!
Well I have to go pack and start getting mentaly ready for the drive down. This is so sad...I want to be at the beach so bad but hate the idea of getting there.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

O wow talk about crash and burn....that was me this morning. I woke up about 7:15 and was wide awake for about an hour then my body decided it wanted to sleep, become a dead weight. I couldn't even lift my arms or head. I made myself get up about 20 minutes ago. I am still groggy and my body feels very heavy. I could easily lay back down and stay there. I am sitting here trying to not close my eyes.........So I am going to finish this and get going for my day. I have been feeling pretty good the past couple of days and I think today is my body catching up. My legs have of course been in pain. My feet and ankles have been acting up too. I am going to be dropping of my paper work to join the YMCA and can't wait to use the pool...the water temp is in the 80's
Wow, it is 12:00, gotta get going!!! I am not laying here all day!