Happy Mothers Day

Happy Mothers Day to all my friends that are mothers!!!! It is one of the hardest if not hardest jobs ever and one of the most under rated jobs there is. When we are little we take our own mothers for granted and the when we grow up we wonder how did they ever do it all???



My own mother and I had some very very rocky years and I thank the good Lord above for how close we are now! I have learned so much from her and am so much like her it can be scary some days.....my mom loves to garden, I love to garden, my mom loves to craft, I love to craft! I mean for years growing up all I ever knew was fabric and fabric stores. My mom can sew just about anything if not she will figure it out. For goodness sake before I got sick I managed a JO-ANN Fabric and Craft store. Me, that is the last place I thought I would ever work! I knew nothing about fabric!!! Trust me I learned!! (they hired me because I can manage, 15 years as a district manager) What is really scary......I liked working there. I learned about crafts I had never heard of, fabric I loved and made a friend for life!! MaryEllen is a very special lady who saw me through some really bad days and is just a good friend!!

I understand my mom soooo much more now....I love you MOM!!!!



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This morning I woke up remembering that I have Fibro! I felt like the tv commercial say I should except it was alot worse. I had to make myself get out of bed and practically stumble down the stairs to get my meds and juice. I really wanted to go to church or I would have stayed in bed!! Anytime I want to go anywhere early in the day, I have to get up at least 2/3 hours early to take my meds. Then I hope they work enough for me to function. Like right now, took them this afternoon but am feeling like a vegetable and the only part of my body that I am moving is my fingers. Everything else just kinda wants to sit there!!! I feel like every nerve in my body is on fire and in pain. After church, Jim dropped me off and he took his mom to lunch. I stayed home and layed down...:)
Church service was great today....
I am skipping around here...
That is how my brain works anymore...I can't stand loud noises. I can't spell worth a darn. I used to be able to spell really well and now I would say that I have to check at least several words a day. It is so frustrating!!! Fibro is not only taking my body but my mind as well.....my speech the past several weeks has gotten alot worse. I am slurring really bad some days and can't get words out. It is so frustrating, My words run all over themselves......it actually worries me some days!!!

Tired.........

Anyway, waking up is no fun!! My body feels like it belongs to someone else...it was really frustrating at the beach with our friends, they see me and they think I am fine. Just because on the outside I look o.k.. I could walk around with this sour look on my face and show how much pain I am in but I am so tired of doing that. I just hate that some of my friends don't understand. I know I shouldn't let it bother me or care what other people think but I do. I am on disability and am not proud of it but I do know that I need it!!!!!! If I could work I would!! If I could have more than a couple good days in a row I would happily work!!! The weather is warmer so that is on my side right now and does help a little :) .....when the weather is cold, rainy, damp, humid forget it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My body just wants to shut down!! I hurt so bad but am getting so good at not showing it to the outside world. Or it could be because I stopped going into the outside world so much....

Just felt like rambling....

I love my daughter and I thank GOD for allowing me the privalge of being her mom!!! I am so proud of her.....
Thanks to my hubby for making this a special day....