Yesterday was a good day emotionally and I so needed it. I had almost forgotten what it felt like to go thru a day without crying. The past couple of months have been like an emotional roller coaster for Jim and I and we are both ready to get off.
Last night we went over to our friends house and I found a new wine that I really like. Of course I can't remember what it is called right now but I will post later....anyway, I have pretty much taken to not drinking because of the meds I take and I don't really want to risk feeling like crud! So what did I do last night, drank 3 glasses of wine!!!! The first real alcohol in forever....and after glass 3 I wanted to die!!! We came home, Jim helped me into bed, put the trashcan beside me. (didn't need it but I wish I had) So, I am sticking to one glass and being DD!!
To top it all of I threw my back out yesterday. For about the last 15/18 years it has been happening. It is like it gets stuck, I will be walking and all of a sudden it will stop me in my tracks. A pain so sharp it takes my breath away. So for the next couple of days, I will walk funny and bend funny. I have some muscle relaxers but I REALLY DON'T WANT TO TAKE MORE PILLS!!!! I might have gotten 3/4 hours sleep last night because I just couldn't get comfortable or would wake every time I moved. I feel so bad because I kept Jim awake too..:( I am laying here and it hurts so freaking bad.....come on, give me a break!!! Isn't fibro pain, enough????
Week 1 down of my bladder treatments 2 more to go......