Sunday, March 28, 2010

An alcoholic I will not be!!

Yesterday was a good day emotionally and I so needed it. I had almost forgotten what it felt like to go thru a day without crying. The past couple of months have been like an emotional roller coaster for Jim and I and we are both ready to get off.

Last night we went over to our friends house and I found a new wine that I really like. Of course I can't remember what it is called right now but I will post later....anyway, I have pretty much taken to not drinking because of the meds I take and I don't really want to risk feeling like crud! So what did I do last night, drank 3 glasses of wine!!!! The first real alcohol in forever....and after glass 3 I wanted to die!!! We came home, Jim helped me into bed, put the trashcan beside me. (didn't need it but I wish I had) So, I am sticking to one glass and being DD!!

To top it all of I threw my back out yesterday. For about the last 15/18 years it has been happening. It is like it gets stuck, I will be walking and all of a sudden it will stop me in my tracks. A pain so sharp it takes my breath away. So for the next couple of days, I will walk funny and bend funny. I have some muscle relaxers but I REALLY DON'T WANT TO TAKE MORE PILLS!!!! I might have gotten 3/4 hours sleep last night because I just couldn't get comfortable or would wake every time I moved. I feel so bad because I kept Jim awake too..:( I am laying here and it hurts so freaking bad.....come on, give me a break!!! Isn't fibro pain, enough????

Week 1 down of my bladder treatments 2 more to go......

1 comment:

  1. Funny, funny, funny! Three glasses of wine? OMG! I'd be on the floor! Anymore I'm a cheap drunk...
    Doesn't it figure? One pain goes away and another takes its place. Back pain is so bad but take some muscle relaxers! They do help...I know it's more pills but it really does help. Do you have a comfortu pillow? It is a little expensive but it's well worth it! It cradles you everywhere. It was designed by a nurse and it has saved my fanny! It might help you get comfortable!