This morning is one of those where I just want to throw things and yell!! I am sooooo tired of feeling like crud...last Friday I had a massive flare and since then have been struggling. I feel like a total waste of a person and I know I'm not it is just that day after day after day for over 5 years NEVER feeling 100% or feeling like you remember in your mind I'm allowed to have some bad days!!!!
I could say it frustrates me but honestly it makes me a bit angry when people tell me if I was just positive, things would be better!!! Let them deal with this EVERY day and see if they are positive too!!! Don't get me wrong I do have positive days and I do realize how blessed I am!!!
I just really wish people would take the time to get to know what my life is really like before they decide to judge me or Jim for that matter. The reason I say Jim is because this effects him as well.
Today is Wednesday and since Friday I have spent the majority of my time inside the house either sitting or laying down. I have gone a few places but it has been for about an hour and then I come home and am back down again. Yard work which I soooooo want to get my hands into, I am now paying a nice young man to help me out. I went outside yesterday and did some very low key work and after about an hour back inside. Last night it took everything I had just to walk a few steps and I could have easily gone to bed by 9:00 but wanted to spend some time with my hubby.
Jim is such an awesome man!! We don't always get along and he can make me angry in a minute ( I can do the same to him,hahaha) but I would be lost without him. He is my best friend and the love of my life. I believe with everything that is in me that GOD brought us together and that this is his plan!