first let me start off by saying, i love my husband!!!
i thought that was a better way to start off this morning then saying........I HATE MORNINGS!!!!!! to wake up every morning feeling like you have the flu..my body hurts!!! having to make that first trek down the stairs just kills me, i look like i am about 80 yrs old. imagine me taking 1 step at a time and wincing with each step.
what is even funnier is me going down the stairs at 4:00ish in the morning to let maggie out.

yesterday was an ok day. i had a hard time getting started and once i did, it was not a fast pace. i did however do my P90X. i did much better on my munching, still have a long way to go but it is a start.

i asked Jim to get my bike down, i am going to start doing some riding around the neighborhood. i am probably going to have to walk up several hills but i am going to do it. AWESOME for my hips and thighs.......hopefully i can sweet talk my hubby into riding with me some.........i am going to try taking maggie with me too. (not every time though)

my neck and shoulder pain and tightness is coming back. it drives me nuts as well as hurts!!! it has always been there but i could kinda forget about it. not now!!! why do massages cost so much?????? so let's see, i have pain in my legs, feet, my neck and shoulders....i would say...I HURT!!!!!!!!

not a lot planned for today, take care of a few errands, P90X and bible study tonight. it is absolutely beautiful outside, i think i will put some mulch out too.
gotta go

ok so my morning has passed and now my afternoon is getting ready to start......my day is officially starting.....NOW!!!!
Have a few errands to run and then back to do P90X......my workout buddy is under the weather. It is so much more fun with someone, plus I need her support!! Get better quick!!!
Yesterday was an ok day......spurts of energy but then they were gone. My pain level was up and done too.
I am seriously thinking about getting a part time job some where......really need the money!!! Plus it would help give me purpose to my day. I could start out 1 - 2 days a week, just a couple of hours at first......wish me luck!!!!

i love this weather but one for a few days then i want my sunshine back!!!!!

I have I told you how I hate mornings lately???? Imagine waking up 5 out of 7 mornings feeling like you have the flu. You know how your body aches, your chest feels tight and your feet and legs ache (for me it hurts like h_ll) the second they hit the floor...., well that's how I feel!!!! It usually takes at least an hour to become somewhat alive. My brain and my body are not always in sink!!! Go figure.....

I would so LOVE to be able to just jump out of bed and get going!!Actually what I would really love to be able to do, is roll over and just hug my husband!!! You know how some mornings you just want to snuggle for awhile?????

I want a day full of energy!!!!!! A day where I feel alive.........

I am trying more protein in my diet. My friend Michelle swears it will help me with my tiredness. I have nothing to loose and everything to gain!!!

Speaking of gaining, that seems to be my theme lately. I am putting on weight at such a rate that the word obese is coming to mind. I can't seem to stop putting sweets in my mouth, actually food in general. I am trying to pop grapes in my mouth but have to remember they have calories too and are full of sugar. I am going to beat this!!!! I don't expect to get back to my pre 40 weight but I want to loose at least 20 pounds!!!! My extra weight has also got to affect my fibro......

Today I have made a "date" to meet up with a friend at the Y, that means I can do the tread mill or elliptical for 30 minutes. I am going to MAKE myself do it. I know I will feel better for it!!!
Wish me luck.........

a busy weekend for me. some people would say it was a laid back one for them but for me it was pretty good.......i stayed busy for me. michelle and i had a table at the woman's breast cancer run, we had to be there at 6:30 am. needless to say, i didn't sleep the night before. jim and i went for a ride on the bike yesterday afternoon.

ok i gotta go.......can't keep my eyes open. will bog in the morning.
good night!!!!!

i am laying here trying to decide whether to take a 10 minute cat nap or get in the shower????? we have a game tonight and have to be there by 7:30. Our last game and I really hope I play for at least a few innings, great butt and leg exercise!!!!

I could get up and fix supper but by the time I do that it will be time to leave so we will just eat after the game. Really I would just love to lay here but alas, I am not so gotta go!!!!!!

Feeling totally exhausted really sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the last couple of days my neck and shoulders have been killing me, you know that achy, burning feeling that just ruins how you feel. last night i was fighting a migraine which i am sure was from that. i am happy to say that all is gone. i can now lift my head up and not feel like my neck will break with one giant crack!!!!

yesterday was a very busy day and i was SOOOO tired. I had to go to bible study last night and it took everything for me to go. i made the mistake of laying down for a quick rest and almost didn't get up........i am so glad i did!!!!!!! we are studying James and we talked about some awesome things. Always talk to GOD!!!
the extent of my tiredness just blows me away sometimes. especially when i am really not doing so much. just staying busy for a few hours can burn me out......it really sucks sometimes. i think about everything i used to do in a day and....wow....i loved it!!!! i would work like crazy and still go for a walk. i so miss that part of my day. I REALLY WISH I COULD GET BACK INTO THAT HABIT. Jim and i used to walk a good bit in our neighborhood and it is SO GOOD for stress.

My pain today is about a 7 out of 10....
last night at bible study for awhile it was about a 15 out of 10. i was sitting there thinking that no one knows how i am hurting! to look at me, you would never know it. in my mind i was having a little power talk with myself.....i don't wish this on anyone but have thought how i wish some people could live my life for a week. especially people that are on the go all the time...then lets sit down and talk about fibromyalgia!!!!!

gotta get going, things to do before i crash......haha