Well this is day 3 of me feeling like I have been beat up, legs and feet hurting and having no energy. Day 3 of having to make myself get up and do something......well the last 2 days I have gotten much of nothing done. But not today!!! I can't take it another day! I hate my life being on hold. That is the best way to explain it, my life on hold and my body slowly spreading....
After being gone for 2 weeks and pretty much having no excercise and eatting way to much food, coming home and being a "bed" junky is not cool! I feel even worse!! I had all intentions of coming home and jumping back into th Y........:( I am so over all this!!!!!
I had a great vacation.....got my daughter all ready for college, spent great time with my parents, had a whole week with just my husband!! I felt like Jim and I were on a mini honeymoon at times. We actually "walked" on the beach at night, which was so romantic!!!
€ what does this symbol mean???? Just a random question, it is on my keyboard and have never used it???
I think, no I know I will have all the laundry done today. I have been working on it since Monday. I do believe when I came home on Monday, that I saw the largest amount in my laundry basket!!! That is about all I have gotten done in 3 days, pretty sad, huh?
I can't wait to leave the house.....so much to do!! It is so overwhelming! I know I can get it done just hate that I can't do it like I want!! I have a list and instead of it going down, it seems to grow!
I see my friends doing their life and I want that back!!!! I am so tired of my legs hurting and having no energy.....no one really understands!!! People see me doing things and they think I am o.k., when they don't really know what is going on in my head! I put on such a good face at times! But then there are the times when I just can't do it any more! This is one of those times and I am feeling so guilty for it!!
I have brought alot of stress to my marriage because of this......in so many different ways too!
Well I am going to get going with my day.......
I am going to make it a good day......

I took my Oxycontin and my Lyrica a couple of hours ago.....I would hate to feel my pain level if I did not take it! Right now my legs are really hurting and that is with the pain medicine! My back is on fire as well as my arms........
Well goodnight and here is to trying to sleep!!!!!

wow talk about a busy day doing really nothing then that was my day! i made my abb class, yea!!!!!!!!! then went to ms virginia's house to clean, which is always clean to start with!! then to hobby lobby to look at beads.........michelle and i are really addicted!!
my legs held up until about 3:30 then i was ready to scream! right now my legs are about a 70 on a scale of 1-10 but as usual i am sucking it up. yesterday in church while singing, i couldn't stand my legs hurt pretty bad. i just sat there and rubbed my legs!!!!!

I thought I had figured out how to blog from my phone but I guess I didn"t! It is not on here!!! One more thing for me to figure out!!! I am so glad my husband is soooo tech savvy! Last week I made it to the Y 3 days. I did the spin class and was able to do the whole hour each time...my toosh didn't like it at all!!! I am going back again this week....I really want to loose this weight!! I'm going to Wal-Mart today to look at gel seats!!!
I'm sitting here typing and trying so hard to stay awake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It drives me nuts when this hits. I was wide awake about 10 minutes ago! I'll be back later...

A true friend is someone that won't let you back out of going to an "AB'S class! This should be a fun class, I have a frog tattoo that I have not seen in a few years.....my belly hangs over it!!!! :)
I am hoping by going to the YMCA this morning my day will be full of energy!
Yesterday was a very lazy day...which was great because I had no energy, my legs hurt, I had no desire to even walk. Usually when we walk Maggie, I am walking very fast and love it but last night I had to focus on taking every step!
Gotta go get ready, will hopefully write some more tonight....have alot going on!!!

I am back.......I know it has been awhile since I blogged. I stopped for awhile because I got tired of saying the same thing over and over! I hurt!! I am in constant pain......my legs, my arms, my back, my whole body!!! It is different levels daily, it depends on my mood on how I handle the pain. Some days I can take it and some days I can't! Some days I want to scream!! AAAHHHHH!!!!
I was so afraid of the car trip we took to Venice Fl, I didn't know how I would do......I was quite happy! My legs were in pain but it was o.k. for the most part. What helped is I slept about 80% of the time. The rest of the time, I just moved around......I fidgeted!!!
I am back going to the YMCA, I soooo need to do this. It will be great for my strength, flexibility and my weight!! I weighed myself for the first time in 2 years. I don't need a # to know I am overweight!!!! Well now I have a # so maybe it will help!!!! I need to lose 25 pounds and I can do it!!!!!!!!!
My pain is not going to stop me!!!
Gotta go....water class is calling me!!!

I am not lost....I am right here! I just have not felt like really talking lately.
Yesterday I had my first colonoscopy and hopefully my last! The stuff you have to drink is sooooo awful and that is putting it kindly. I am now fully empty......I hope to keep it that way. One thing that worries me is my oxycontin. One of the side effects is constipation and believe me it does that! I am going to talk to my doctor about switching to another pain pill. I am first going to cut my pill in 1/2 and try cutting down that way.
Adding fiber however I can to my diet......I don't remember a thing!! Except that my husband was wonderful and loving! Thank you for everything you do. Also want to say Thank you to my fantastic mother in law, Sue! I love you both..........
Gotta go, have a very very busy day!!
I am leaving for the beach today, my daughter is graduating tomorrow. I am so happy but yet, very sad. This is the beginning of a whole new chapter for her....she is growing up and becoming a young adult.