Frustrated at my patient..:)

First things first.....I love you dad!!! I so enjoy my daily phone call to you and I am so happy that you and Alexx had dinner together!

Ok, now to what I want to write about and that is being frustrated at my husband! Yes, I said frustarted at Jim. The reason I am frustrated is because he is sick and I am trying to help him to get better and he is doing everything to not get better! I am exagerating some so let me explain....

Jim does a really great job of making sure that I have all of my meds. Even when I first got sick and we were going thru all of our financial "rearranging" he made sure that I had my meds because he knew thats what I needed. Those of us with fibro/cfs and the many things that go along with it know that can cost a pretty penny.

If I am having a bad day, Jim will make sure that I lay down for awhile. (Most days, there are some days that I just don't want to stop)

Jim is really good about rubbing my feet or legs when I just can't stand the pain any longer.

Jim has spent many restless nights due to my tossing and turning and has never once complained.

A couple Sundays ago, Jim went to church before me and I sent him a test letting him know I was on my way and the reason I was late leaving is due to the fact that I had gotten overheated and my body was shaking, especially my hands. He told me he was on his way home, not to leave!!! I asked him not to come get me but he didn't listen and came home anyway...

Jim has put up with my terrible mood swings due to my many pain levels!! I think this is perhaps the toughest one to handle...:(
Actually, I think my lack of personality might be the toughest one to deal with!!!!
(jim knows what I am talking about) I want to be by myself more times than not.

Jim put up with my weight gain and never once made me feel ugly!! I know he is happy though that I lost the weight, I look more like me now, hahahahaha!!!!

So, now to why I am frustrated with my hubby.....I WANT TO TAKE CARE OF HIM AND HE IS MAKING IT VERY HARD FOR ME TO DO IT!!!!!! HE HAS A CHOICE TO GET BETTER AND WON'T LET ME HELP HIM TO GET BETTER!!!!!
HE HAS A VERY BAD COUGH AND SOUNDS VERY STUFFY. I do not like it when my husband is sick, thank goodness it doesn't happen that often. I want to make him all better.
Last night he was laying on the couch and it was about 10:00 and I told him I was going to run to the store and get him some cough medicine and some cough drops. Now mind you it was rainy and cold out side...I am telling you that for a reason. I got him to take a cough medicine that helped him sleep really good and he hardly coughed at all...:)
This morning as he was leaving for work, I told him or asked him to take some of the cough medicine that I had got for him that is NON DROWSY. Did he, NO!!

My husband also has medicine that he has to take everyday...I have to remind him of that also!

Can anyone understand why I am frustrated?? Like I said, He can get better and won't let me help him!!!! I want to take care of him, like he takes care of me!!!!!

I love you Jim....now take your cough medicine....haha