You know it really sucks to have Fibro! I could list at least 10 things off the top of my head that I hate about having Fibro but I want to talk about only 1 right now!!!
Not being able to contribute financially to our house. I mean I make a little money here and there having jewelry parties, cleaning Ms. Virginia's house but I am talking about income like I used to make before I went on disability. Jim is an awesome provider but when emergencies come up like this week($1026.00 on getting a root canal) I feel so like a burden on our family!! Plus a crown and cleaning that are next.
Jim has been so awesome, never once has he made me feel guilty for not working, it is all done by me and I do a pretty good job. Jim is so supportive in everything I do......
God is always with me and answers my prayers. One prayer he answered was when he sent me Jim. God has seen Jim and I through some pretty tough times since I quit my job and I know he is always with us!
I prey for the strength to be strong for Jim and the wife I want to be....

A good morning so far....I am laying here in bed with my dog at my feet and my cat is laying right up next to me. Nothing like having your hand licked by your cat.

Well I had all the intentions to blog yesterday but my body said no way!! But, it was actually a good no way.....what I mean is that I was just worn out from going and going! Started my day out doing an ab class then an hour of yoga! Yes, I know I should have stopped there but no not me...I went shopping with my 17 year old!!! She is starting her freshman year of college and has to look good!!! (today we are going to do more of the same)
We got home about 5:30 and I was asleep by 6:30 and was up at 7:45. My awesome husband woke me by saying, supper is ready!! Another reason, I love him!!!
The day was pretty good except for my legs and feet hurting........they did really really good up until about 3ish. The really bad part is that I have a toothache!! It was bound to happen. I have a tooth that is 1/2 gone. Of course, my teeth have gotten so bad since my Fibro. My medical insurance should cover this since my teeth have gotten worse, I feel due to my Fibro. I mean in the past year or so, my teeth have gone from not bad to very very bad!!! My gums are awful!!!
My fantastic husband made me a dentist app. for tomorrow. Do I want to go? Yes. Can we afford it??? No!!! It is a tooth that cannot just be pulled and left. It is a visible tooth when I talk or smile.......I am feeling nauseous about going because of the money. I know it is going to be a root canal, new tooth and then on to the many other problems.......
Oops, just saw the time, gotta go and will be back tonight.

This is going to be kinda random but something that is weighing heavy on my mind and heart. Today at church we had communion and Pastor Craig was praying for us, Alexx, Jim, Tamara Bryant and her husband, Steve. Jim asked Craig to pray for patience and strength to help us with our daily dealings with my Fibro. Again, this was a reminder to me of what Jim deals with on a daily basis....and it is not easy!!! I have bad days and feel sorry for myself but Jim never shows me this.....he struggles with so much!!!! Jim is such a strong man but he needs to be able to lean on me. I know he leans on God!!!!
This DOES not only affect me but my husband and family too!! Just like today after lunch, I needed to lay down for about 30 minutes before we went bowling with the youth group. After bowling not even a whole game I was so worn out. I used to be able to bowl 3 games with no problem!!!! I was ready to come home and lay down for a nap, which I did and am now just laying here typing but I am also having a hard time keeping my eyes open.....I feel a small nap coming on before I go to the grocery store with Alexx.
O.K. my eyes were closed for about 5 minutes so I am going to end here....
Please pray for Jim to continue to have the strength to deal with all the emotions that come along with dealing with my Fibro!!! I have been truly blessed to have him for a husband and I Than God every day!!!!

Pretty darn good day!! Except for a few tired moments ( nothing a few short naps didn't help) my pain level was at a pretty good level......well gotta go to sleep, have church on the morning! Going to glorify Gods name.......

I JUST DID YARD WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT FELT AWESOME TO SWEAT AND GET DIRTY!!!!!

Had a good night with friends, it felt normal! The men sat outside and drank their manly drinks and we women stayed inside and talked about women stuff. Dinner was good, we had tri-tip. For those of you that have never tried it before I highly recommend it!!!!
I got most things done on my to do list today. They were not done to the standards that I used to have but they got done. I did some yard work, some cleaning up and such. No where near what I wanted to get done but it was a start.
Cleaning the house, again not perfect but enought to feel clean. I even washed 2 loads of towels for Kyle, Yes he had that many towels in his room. If I was to guess, I would say at least 20 towels........but he gets to fold and put away.....

My husband finally left a comment.....that meant the world to me! I want and need to know what he is thinking and feeling. I know we do talk about my Fibro and how it is affecting our lives but his words really had a pull on my heart. I am very selfish and don't put his feelings into account alot of times. I am so wrapped up in how I am feeling, how I don't like how I am. He has been so wonderful to me, in so many ways!!! He deserves so much more........Again with the me....I want my spunk back, I want to go here there and everywhere!
I have put such a financial burden on our lives, me not working. We had bills that were supported by 2 incomes and then to go to just one. Jim has not once blamed me or made me feel guilty in anyway!! I do enough of that to myself!! I know Jim worries about it all the time tough.
Well I am going to try and sleep, my stomach is acting up again,,,,,just the pain. Good news though, I get to pick up my poopy medicine in the morning.....yea!!! But the best part of tomorrow is I get to see my daughter. Alexx is coming up for a week to stay with me, Jim and Kyle....YEA!!!!!!